Ups and Downs...

The last two weeks for the Macias family have been full of many ups and downs. Jordan has had two full weeks of chemo and was in and out of the hospital and doctors offices more than we would of liked.

As last reported, he started off with a short hospital stay after receiving many different chemos that continued all through the week of Christmas. It was a miracle that we were not in the hospital during Christmas Eve and on Christmas day. He had a really rough week of being super sick but Christmas Eve...something happened and the light returned back in his eyes, he took a few bites of food and the corky (probably excited for Christmas) attitude was back. Now I know what they mean when they say..."Christmas Miracle." We were all together and not separated! Jordan was then able to enjoy Christmas day with family and enjoy new gifts.

This last Monday it all started again with a spinal tap back in the hospital along with other chemos that were to continue through Thursday. We expected it to be an easier week on Jordan but as the week went on, he only got worse. After trying to get Jordan to feel better and stop throwing up at the doctors office on Thursday, it was then decided it was best to admit him into the hospital. The doctors then made another decision, because of Jordan's weakend condition, to not proceed with the chemo that was due on Thursday and to stop the chemo pills that should have continued up until this Sunday. I'm not too sure how I feel about this...they told us that they knew I would be anxious about this decision but assured us that Jordan would be OK without finishing these particular treatments. The doctors feel that what Jordan has received these past two weeks have been at high levels and have done their job.

With some hesitation...the doctors discharged Jordan on New Years Day, they know how much we hate being in there and always try their hardest to make us happy. In fact, one of his doctors, came back to the hospital specifically to see Jordan, at 10:30 New Years Eve night. She said she just had to see him again and didn't like the way she had left him earlier that day. We are truly blessed to have the doctors we have, you see them so much, they turn into family.

We are scheduled to proceed with some light dosages of chemo this Monday, but that will be determined by blood work and how Jordan is feeling. His weight is back down to under 60 lbs. They don't seem too worried and they feel that his appetite will come back once the hard chemo is done with.

I have to say a special Thank You to my sister Sherrie, for coming with us on those spinal tap days and bringing some laughter into our hospital room. Also, Thank You to Big Brother, Tristen for going with us these past two weeks, always having to be the one to fetch the wheelchair, be his driver and help him throw up while I'm driving. I know this wasn't the best way to spend his Christmas break but Jordan could not have a more sensitive, compassionate brother.

I've never been more ready to say, "Bye Bye 2009" and "Welcome 2010." The year 2009 was filled with way too many tears for my family. While I'm forever grateful for triumphs in this past year, I'm ready for a New Year filled with New Hope and New Promises.

Thank you to all of you for standing by our sides during what was the most difficult time we've ever had to endure. Thank You for your dedication and faithful prayers that go out to Jordan each and everyday. And Thank You Lord, for NEVER abandoning us...